Bike Ok Me Ok

So:  X ray of my foot, and MRI of my wrist:  nothing abnormal detected.  Just some kind of bruise.  But, should come ack to the hospital in case thigs are still painfull in the future: 2 weeks for foot, 2 months for the hand.

 

Now; need to finidsh this damned report at work: have been procrastinating around it form months - getting too long now.   Lets finish it today.

hospital

I forgot how cute nurses could be.  Well, I got X-rayed, on my left hand and left foot.  Can't see anything on the X-ray, so will go to have an MRI tomorrow. Hope with don't find anything with that either, on my hand.  Left foot:  so,, nothing seems broken, but it really hurts and I go limping in the street.   Still can ride the bike though.

Crashed the bike

So today,this morning - I crashed my bike for the third time - the third time in 5 months.  I had been riding for more than a year with no crashes at all, and then ...  it correlates somewhat with girl problems.  So, this time, I hurt my left foot. Could be broken, but I still can walk.  Will go for an X-ray tomorrow.  Was riding out of home to go to work - on Saturdays we have seminars. Just a left turn on the bottom of the hill, sharp corner as I like to take them, as many bikers like to take them, and then slipped.  Right in front of a police station, so  many people appeared all of a sudden, wanting to help, was nice.  Was ok. Jeans ripped, bloody knee,still rode the half hour to work.  Bought a new pair of jeans on the way. Bike tank scratched, not too bad, but bad enough for me thinking about eventually painting it or putting some sticker. I think the gards helped somewhat.  This event, together with my total unfaith in my science research, really put me in a terrible mood.  

I devised sometime ago, the following technique to fell better when all turns to ugly and dark:  sit down, or lie down, comfortably, close your eyes and try to medidate in the Zen sense.  That means empty your mind of thoughts. It's not easy at first, and there are several techniques to help one to acheive this: focuse on your senses, what you hear, smell, focus on your respiration. After a few minuts of this I usually feel quite better.  Unfortunately I often  forget to practice my own advice when needed.  Well, I guess I will do it today.

  I know it's obnoxious that I don't mention exactly where I am  in the world but I am compelled to keep anonymity.  A big city in what can be described as modern and civilized country.

what did i do ... what did i do ....

I did it ...

An now I can't write and can't work ...

And i did it ...  It took sometime to get its grip on me, and here it is now ...

I deeply wanted too and i knew it would have terrible consequences, now I may be spiriling down to hell ...

What did I do to her and to myself ...  But i couldn't have not done it - that's how it feels.

 How do I get out of this state.

Chemicals ? 

saying of the month

In life, one must always have someone to look down on.

Girls

Girls - I love them so much. So incredibly beautiful.  Just had such a sweet dinner.  Nothing romantic, a colleague, but I really enjoyed because she's such a cutty.

I officially decided to behave like a good biker and have several girl friends. What the hell. I will be much happier that way.  

Bike and Church

Ran into  a funny citation a few days ago.    Church and motorcycle go well together somehow, don't they ?

"I'd rather be riding my motorcycle thinking about God than sitting in church thinking about my motorcycle" 

Bike

This whole bike thing - my new bike -  is giving me an incredible boost of freshness in my mind.  currentlyimagining touring around the country with a tent and a girl on the back.  Large spaces and speed, incredible scenery and freedom.  I get extatic just thinking of it. The good thing is that this is going to happen, for real, soon.

Anonymous

Since I want to stay anonymous, I will not divulge where I am writing nore describe precisely personal information or adventures.  I still hope the issues addressed here, varied but all closely related to my spirituality leak, may be of interest to some people.  

Please get in toucgh via e-mail if you really want to have more information.

Weather statistics

Today again, my computer downloaded weather predictions from the Yahoo weather site, for several major cities in the world.    The goal is to get a list of weather predictions over the years, and determine how good weather prediction is.  Kinda fun too ...

Anyone curious about that ?